Venus in Furs

CSI Google Start Page, how cool is that!
Created by blackangel_life from this little site.

There's a little part of me that's *really* excited :D

What the hell am I going to wear to Dead Sexy this Friday????

How would I go about saran wrapping myself so that I could still remain upright *and* move around??

I finally caved and started watching True Blood, my resistance was based on my dislike of the Twilight movie and inability to understand the hype surrounding it and my complete disappointment with Heroes. I thought True Blood would be an amalgamation of the two.

But now I'm watching it, not for the love story between miss sunshine and pasty vampire dude *gag* but because Tara has a mouth on her I adore, Lafayette makes me giddy and I can not help but drool over Jason. I mean, wow!!


Yes, I am objectifying him and yes I am that shallow and yes I will keep watching the show as long as he keeps taking off his shirt.

I don't talk about Brandon often and the truth is because I don't form connections with pictures or stories of other people's children, byandlarge, so I respect that other people would feel the same about mine. That may have been a little too honest eh? lol

Brandon is the light of my life. I struggled so hard just loving him for who he was as a person when he was younger, I suffered from Post Partum and just trying to be the kind of parent I believe people should have, which I am not and probably never will be. So it's just amazing to me that I love this little guy with every fiber of my being for who his is and not because it's my maternal instinct to protect him.

Brandon makes me laugh, he makes me think, he's just such a joy to watch grow. Yes, he also makes me want to pull my hair out in frustration when he says "no, I won't" or when he challenges me to parent beyond my skill-level (I mean, *I* can't even see a reason why we can't leave our shoes downstairs when we come home but cest la vie)

The worst problem I have is seeing so much of myself in him and trying to protect him from making the same mistakes I've made. I see him being socially awkward and how it hurts him and I don't know how to help him. I see him not TRY things because he's afraid of failing. It breaks me up inside.

Brandon plays too many video games, he doesn't clean his room but he's funny, intuitive, sensitive and smart.
He's just a really normal kid which in itself is an accomplishment!!
Like, average, nothing overly special and nothing really wrong with him.

So, yah, I am over the moon in love with and adore my son. Completely and totally.



(*taken from a post on Paul's site)

So yah, I'm unemployed and it's a mixed bag of nuts.

On the one-hand I'm getting a lot of stuff done around the house and a lot of relaxing (as much as you can be while ingesting copious amounts of coffee).
On the other-hand I'm lonely and unmotivated.
I can feel myself slipping down that depression slope so I'll be bucking up and looking for a job soon.

One thing I've noticed about being alone and aimless for this past week is how focused I've become on the little things, like dust on the top of picture frames and scrutinizing my own feelings way too thoroughly. The truly unimportant. That's a sign if I ever recognized one.

And I'm guessing part of this contributes to the friction between Paul and I, not the good kind.
We've been miss-communicating *everything*. It's gotten to the point where we can hardly say two words to each other without having to explain the reason why we're saying what we're saying and/or being offended by them.

I'll be the first to admit I'm not terribly good at this whole "relationship" business, I find it frustrating and difficult probably more often than I should.

But despite all this I can't help think that I must be pretty lucky if this is what I find to be my hardship. If I was truly down-and-out I would assume situations like this to be the norm and not take notice.

*That* has to be a rough life.

I know I'll be fine with a hug and a good, swift kick to the butt.

As I branch out on my own I’m trying to decide what the best business choice to make is;
Do I hire on at a club as a private contractor, I’d be running my own business and renting the use of the facility but have access to the clientele. Do I hire on at a gym on payroll, I’d be making way less money but wouldn’t have to worry about sales, or do I go my own and find my own clientele then train out of their homes, outsides etc?

Understandably going fully my own is scarier as I’ll be taking a risk that my bets will pay off but they may not.

I guess the question comes down to what I value more, safety or money….

How's this for an "about me" section?
Please, feedback would be truly appreciated :)

Who is Dangergirl?
My name is Danielle and I am just an average woman who, regrettably, can not claim an athletic background. Not only that but I suffer from chronic lower back pain and fatigue.
I am a mother, a daughter, a sister, a wife and one-chance day not long ago I discovered I was also a superhero.

A fateful scooter accident on a blustery winters day sent me flying across the unforgiving pavement and straight into the physiotherapists office. My life-long aches and pains only exasperated by the new ailment that plagued me. It seemed I was doomed for a life of sub-par enjoyment, never to leap over tall buildings in a single bound.

It was during this time of trial and tribulations where I found refuge in the gym (doctors orders of course) and discovered my hidden true superpowers!

I learnt that I had the ability to change my life using my body as a conduit and in the process I became stronger, more energized, quicker, more capable and happier because of it. I had the power to “grab life by the horns” and vanquish my inner-voice of failure.

With great power comes great responsibility (thanks Uncle Ben) thus I have embarked on a quest to rid other people's lives of inertia, unwellness and general dissatisfaction.

My weapons of choice are knowledge, hands-on demonstrations, attention to detail, passion and living by example.

Cape-wearing isn't guaranteed but sometimes necessary.

I need to create 10 programs for my Personal Training course.

I know a couple of you want some, so if you're serious about it give me a ping, comment, email, call etc. and let's meet to go over your goals, commitment and capabilities and I'll create a program for you!